Everyone wants attention in one way or another. And if you're a girl, you'd probably want that extra attention from a special guy. Who wouldn't want that, right? Being surprised, calling you just to say you're missed, and all those cheesy stuff guys do. It makes girls feel they are special, it makes us feel we're beautiful.

I am fully satisfied with our relationship and my love for him did not change, don't get me wrong. But there's this feeling inside of me that wants to feel the way I do before. I want to feel that "kilig" again. And it's not because he's not giving much effort to make this relationship work. It's just that, probably, we became too comfortable with each other that we've reached equilibrium. I wanna go above this line and start moving again. Do you, girls, get what I mean? I want those letters, calls and stuff again. I want those simple things. :)

So I talked to him about this last night. I was scared he won't get my point, but thankfully he did. I just hope we'd both change. Hahaha, i miss those cheesy moves :P

{/Sunday, July 26, 2009}

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We always have this feeling that the first day of school is just gonna go fast and easy - probably because not all profs come to school and or they're lazy, hahaha. After all, it is just the FIRST day.

But NOOO. I was wrong.

I had two classes this afternoon, BS 199.2 and BS 183. And yes, my profs were present..and were on time =I So now, I have to start preparing and leaving early, so as not to be late. I miss my old professors, hahaha!

As I sat there, listening to the numerous requirements I have to accomplish, it made me realize how time sure flies fast. I am now on my third year in college and in just about 2 years, I'd be graduating and facing the real world. The real world where I would be obliged to work to live. I'm scared to leave schooling just because I don't know what to expect after. I don't even know how to face it. Selfish as it may sound, still studying gives us the excuse to just rely on our parents to live (which is so much easier, especially with our economic status right now).

But, we all have to move on - to go on with life. Each and everyday, we grow older and closer to living independently. We must not be scared because He will always provide.

Let's just live everyday and make the most out of it. After all, I still have 4 semesters and hopefully med school before I become successful (I proclaim it, with God's help!).

{/Monday, June 15, 2009}

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People are really irritating at times. You guys know what situation we are in now, so don't make things harder. We can not let it pass. We just can't.

Phew. Glad I got that out my body, haha. Nakakairita kasi. :))

On a lighter note, school will start again in a span of two weeks. I'm so not yet ready :( I miss API and Block 6 though, but i don't want to go to school yet.

{/Sunday, May 24, 2009}

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I'M GOING TO THE BEACH TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
OVERNIGHT!!!!
WITH ICA FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you guys feel the excitement? hahaha

We'll miss you, Meme :(

{/Thursday, May 14, 2009}

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Just the thought of you, keeping us alive for 9 months in your womb, makes me thankful for you. You then gave us shelter, education and food just to make us comfortable in living our lives. You may not have a lot, but you worked hard just to provide our needs and even wants. You took care of us when we were sick, gave us advice when we needed it and most of all, loved us even though we are at our worst.

I couldn't thank you enough for every single thing you did for us. It hurts me that things are like this, but I am holding on..holding on to God's promise that He has a purpose for everything. It's everyday that I miss having you. Everything's different now that you're not here..

Sometimes I wish for replay. Maybe I could have done something to preserve this family. What ifs.

I love you and that won't ever change. No matter what happens, you'll be my mom. You are the best mom in the world. Happy mom's day.

If only she'll be able to read this. If only.

{/Saturday, May 09, 2009}

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Lately, I've been feeling like my life's a routine. I wake up in the morning, eat breakfast/lunch, go online, watch tv, eat dinner, and then sleep. The next morning, I do the same stuff again. Over and over again.

You guys know how many times I check my Plurk, Multiply, Facebook and Y!M accounts everyday? How many times I'd refresh every single page just to get new updates. Demmit. And I'm hating how hungry I am all the time. It's making me gain more weight! I seriously need exercise right now. And and, it's so hoooooot right now! In fact, one of the activities I enjoy nowadays is taking a bath XD Thank God for electric fans and aircons!

I am longing for swimming pools right now. It's summer and I want a tan :P And swimming's a good body refresher, and a way to lose weight too, haha. I might swim tom with my neighbors and with my college friends on Monday. Also, I am hoping the cj-iella plan will push through!

Not doing anything is killing me :( Seriously.

{/Saturday, April 18, 2009}

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I hate myself for feeling upset with how things are with us. You know, I do understand that they have to come first because it just goes that way - no matter what. I know you have to be there no matter how special that day is for us. But as much as I try to forget this, I can't help but feeling this way.

It's just that, you didn't give me assurance; assurance that I'll come next. I don't even know when exactly I'll see you. And that's what's probably making me feel this way, 'cause I don't really have something to look forward to.

I'm not angry. I don't have the right to. But maybe, all I need is a day. Give me something to look forward to. Or even celebrate the 16th with me, or even after that. But please, just a day, I need a day with you.

I miss you =c

{/Monday, April 13, 2009}

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